Cold

I have a cold. Ugh.

I haven't blogged in two days - I think they are the first days I have missed. I guess I just haven't had a lot to say; not much has happened at work or outside of work so there didn't seem much point to writing.

I got an email from his best friend S yesterday about a reference check that he'd been sent by AVI - he was originally listed as the referee for our joint application and clearly AVI didn't notice this or modify their reference checklist when the joint application became just my application. It was the right thing for him to email me to check what was happening, but I felt a bit annoyed and upset because I just don't want his world crossing over into mine. I don't want him to know what I'm doing or when I'm going - not until after I've gone anyway, or at least much closer to the departure date. In the end I suppose that's a bit petty and unimportant, and in any case he's not getting his information from me, so I shouldn't give it too much thought or concern. I guess I'd just been doing such a good job of keeping things separate, and I sort of feel a bit put out that that separation has been breached in some small way.

I don't intend to contact him at all - even about furniture removals or any of that stuff - until after I get back from Perth. By then we will have had almost a full month without contact, and I will still have ample time to get things organised. I'm sure he is not thinking about things the same way as I am, and I am sure that this no-contact thing has been great for him and his goal of "moving on"; that does make me feel a bit strange but I have to remember that I am making progress and that I have done so much better in the last couple of weeks than I was doing before. I guess I should try to remember that the separation I'm seeking also applies to how we deal with things now, and that I should not try to measure my progress against his or what I assume his to be.

I'm going home tomorrow. Looking forward to seeing my family and friends, and Perth looks like it will be really fun. Fingers crossed.